2012 – Health Issues & Finding Strength

Hey everyone!! Or anyone who might be reading this bloggie~ eheh.. Hmm.. just wanna do a little review of last year~ honestly, i think no one cares, but i just wanna write it down somewhere so i can look back and see how far i’ve come~ people tend to see how far they are from their dreams, but often forgot to see how far they’ve come from the time they started out working towards their dreams~

What’s my dream? Aha.. i’ll talk about that in my next post~ truthfully, i’ve never literally dreamed about having my own shop. But i do have some goals in life~ Goals that i hope will keep me from tipping off the edge.. So far, they’ve been rather helpful.. especially since i was terribly down and suicidal last year.. 3 breakdowns.. that’s quite a number.. i don’t remember breaking down so many times the year before.. and no, by breakdown, i don’t mean just breakdown and cry thingy~ To me, breaking down, means stepping on the edge, feeling far too tempted to end everything, far too tired to continue living~ too tempting to jump off, too tempting to grab that shiny blade~ often, i’d punch the wall, the floor, anything hard, just to distract myself from the pain inside~ it helps a little..

but of course i don’t recommend punching walls/floor etc to anyone!! my doc asked me to punch pillows.. but personally, i’d rather punch floor/wall and hurt my knuckles, then punch pillow and risk hurting my wrists.. Yes, i’ve aaaaaaaaaalways wish to have my own punching bag~ Alas, i don’t think my ceiling can hold the weight of one.. Oo”~ if you’re living in Singapore, in the lower and middle income range, i’d suggest you talk to your psychiatrist/psychologist/counselor.. i know a lot of people assumed, if they have mental problems, they HAVE TO go to IMH.. well, FYI, it is NOT necessary. You can, like me, go polyclinic and request to get psychology/psychiatric help at SGH or TTSH etc.. I personally can’t bring myself to seek help at IMH, thanks to the social stigma people already stamped on the hospital.. -_- so, if you’re like me, afraid of the stigma, afraid to feel too much, try getting referral to other hospitals~

if you’re at the lower income, tell them where you stand.. i managed to get free counseling sessions for about 2 years i think.. stopped because i can’t continue talking to someone who “rejects” me when i shamelessly told her “i have no one and no where else to confide in with someone other than within this little room“.. oh well.. can’t expect much since i’m getting FREE counseling session.. she’s probably moody after just giving birth.. i stopped going for counseling, ’cause i know from then on, i can never bring myself to confide in counselors anymore~ but hey, everyone is different! i might just be a lil unlucky~ try getting counselor.. cause really, despite the not nice ending, i never regretted seeking help with Family Service Centre~ i learnt a lot during those 2 years~ a lot a lot a lot~ so much about myself and the people around me.. it’s mentally exhausting sometimes.. but it was enlightening and definitely worth the efforts~ i learnt to be stronger.. more emotionally¬†independent.. i learnt what i want.. what i need.. what i must learn to live without.. why i hate some things.. why some things upsets me.. why some things scare me.. and when you’ve learnt the reasons behind all the whys, you’ll then be able to work on a solution to solve the problems.. ūüėČ

Oh, i also heard you can use your medisave to help with the specialists if you’re getting psychiatric treatments.. just ask your specialist for the form.. am not using my medisave at the moment because when i tried to pay using it, the cashier went on a long tirade “aiya, subsidise a big only lah, a few dollars only, not worth it lah, no need lah ahr, i tear har, i tear ya, i tear this form ok, no need lah, a few dollars only…” i personally wonder how that lady got hired.. to work in a Psychological Medicine Clinic!!!¬†if i weren’t feeling too tired that day, i might just ask to see her supervisor.. -_- a few dollar ONLYONLY she said.. to a paying patient in the¬†Psychological Medicine Clinic asking for help with the medical bills.. wow~ but STILL!!! You know~ if you have a job that contributes to your medisave, you can try paying your specialist using it i guess.. after that biatch, i don’t feel like using mine.. afterall am no longer an employee that gets her cpf topped up every month.. so i’ll just use my own earnings from my stall.. maybe medisave money can use in future if there’s a real need… if it can be used…

jan 25 in hospital2012 had been a very very exhausting year.. thanks to my neighbor smoking his cig at our shared doorstep daily,¬†asthma¬†decides to make a comeback (after 12yrs break) in January~ and with a vengence.. i still recalled how scared-for-my-life i was when i was on my way to the hospital.. for some reason, i chose to take the train rather than the cab.. by the time i reached the counter to register, i could barely breath~ but of course.. i had to wait for my turn.. good thing there wasn’t too many people at ER since it’s the 3rd day of lunar new year.. i couldn’t stand on my own and had to be wheeled around.. i had to overnight there (good thing they gave me a bed) and breath the.. i can’t recalled what was it called.. basically breath the med every few hour.. i was SOOO bored i took a pix of myself~ Lolz!! ūüėĄ looking back at this pix.. i miss my long hair!! T_T

Not long after that episode (March).. i’m not sure what exactly happened but i almost passed out in the train. On my way to visit my usual psychiatrist, i slowly started to break into cold sweat.. then my ears start to ring, and felt like it’s being crushed on the inside.. had to pull off my earphones.. and i started to worry when i found out for the first time what people mean when they say they see spots in their vision~ @_@ it’s like my vision.. seem to fade in and out.. i was scared as hell.. managed to find an empty seat.. took a moment to gather my bearings.. and continue to my appointment.. i don’t know why, but i forced myself to head up to my doc rather than go straight to the ER or general clinic for help.. i was a little tempted but when i was on my way, none of the nurses around me seem to care i seem breathless.. even the nurses in the lift don’t give a damn i was sweating and heaving~ people in the train also didn’t care.. i felt so crappy, i chose my psychologist instead.. then i went home.. and.. just my luck.. people at home didn’t feel like caring at all that day.. went to polyclinic the next day to get a generic blood test done.. broke down for the first time that year on returning home that day.. Reason i survived? I don’t wanna hurt my friend.. she believes in me.. and she’s had enough bad news already.. i don’t want to be another bad news.. she’s a wonderful friend. i don’t want her to hurt.. her sensitive nature, gave me strength~

i later found out from the blood tests that i have¬†hyperthyroidism¬†and¬†slight anemia.. well, that most certainly explains why i keep sweating buckets of water just from walking.. and why i keep getting docs saying my heart rate’s too fast.. if Sinli hadn’t encouraged me to take a blood test, i wonder how bad my condition might get.. Thank you, Sinli!! already by then, my thyroid count was slightly over 3 times the maximum safe amount.. yes.. 3 times.. i was shocked as hell.. because of that, i had to take camazole and iron tabs on top of my fluoxetine… hnnnn…..

when you’re used to walking fast.. having to walk like an old woman.. not having strength in your legs to climb small steps at the stairs.. sweating and heart beating like i just ran a marathon even when i covered a few meters.. all this.. can be quite depressing to say the least.. i haaaateeeee moving slowly!!! yes, i can never live at countryside.. maybe a little too used to busy city life..

hyperthyroidism weight lossso, i diligently took my meds!! eat my prozac so i don’t get too depressed.. eat the carbimazole so my heart can stop beating like crazy.. eat the iron tabs (yummy choc scented) to recover my appetite and feel less light headed.. if there’s one thing to be thankful for.. i actually lost 7kg due to hyperthyroidism!! lolz!!

but it was short lived of course.. i gained back (almost to) my usual weight now that my thyroid’s almost back to normal.. i find my arms.. errr.. seemingly a bit muscular.. sometimes i wonder.. i do sit-ups, squats, and weights since i can’t run.. did i end up gaining some weight in muscles? O_O” maybe i shouldn’t lift too much weights.. fats + bigger muscles = nightmare for my shoulders.. and since they’re ramping up the rent at Vivo again this year.. i might end up postponing treatments for this shoulders for a while more.. also, i dropped a loooooooooooot of hair.. so much, i was considering going to some trichologist for treatment, but decides to save money and asked the doctors at National Skin Clinic first.. turns out hyperthyroidism plus asthma attacks had caused the hair falls.. it’s starting to fall less, almost normal now that my thyroid and asthma seems more stable..

Eating my prozac daily also meant i feel less down.. when meant my mood can be quite good.. and so when Fa is happy.. someone at home gets upset and annoyed that i am happy. Funny hey? but that’s my life~ perhaps he’s used to me being depressed or quiet.. and not to mentioned all the stress at work.. i broke down the night he asked, “have you eaten your medicine?”. Why? Why was i shot that question when i was laughing while watching a comedy?! I mean.. feel free to shoot me THAT QUESTION if i’m laughing while watching some¬†psychopath¬†show.. but what is wrong with me being happy and laughing while watching a COMEDY?! i shot him back saying, i’m laughing BECAUSE I ATE MY MEDICINE!!!! I SHALL EAT LESS SINCE I SEEM TO BE PISSING YOU OFF BY BEING HAPPY!!!

That night, i punched the wall and hurt my knuckles.. and once again wonder how did those actors on tv portray guys punching till their knuckles bleed and act like it’s no biggie~ i only bruised my knuckles and it’s enough to hinder my finger movement for over a week!! it’s freaking annoying!! i wasn’t even halfway through 2012..

The final time i felt suicidal in 2012 was some time between Nov-Dec.. what’s interesting about it is that.. i have NO records of what happened.. the only clue i had was a status i managed to post on fb and this super cute animation my friend shared~ Super cute song that, i’m so glad i didn’t attempt any of the Dumb Ways To Die~ Lolz!!

This vid reminds me of The Book of Bunny Suicides~ funny, cute.. and dunno why, makes me not suicidal~ lolz!!

i didn’t talk to anyone about that breakdown at all apparently.. not sure who or what caused the break down.. i only remember feeling alone, like i had no one to talk to.. i think i clamped myself up totally then.. though i still remember the pain from punching the floor.. why? Cause i struggled like crazy over 3 weeks DURING BUSY X’MAS SEASON trying to use the pliers to make the necklace’s chains and cords… maybe because of the pressure from the earlier part of the year.. and not having much support.. i was tired as hell catching up with restocking my goods for the Christmas season.. imagine my horror when i later found out there was another social flea market going on at the main aisle at Vivo~ sales was terrrible last christmas.. and our management decided to double our rent in November and more than tripled our rent for December~ Wheeee~ ..|.,

But hey! one must learn to find strength and learn to appreciate one’s own efforts.. When you have depression, you’ll tend to keep thinking about how much you’ve suffered.. how much hell you’ve been through.. and depression tend to worsen when you’re down with so many sickness.. having to take so many blood tests.. having to rush closing windows and blasting fans when neighbor smokes.. having no strength to move.. seeing hair keep dropping dropping dropping.. not being able to eat prozac daily cause someone at home feels that i shouldn’t be too happy.. i have to find other ways to be strong!

we all have different ways of finding strength.. and there’s physical strength and mental strength. anger and frustration helped me¬†gain physical strength to combat hyperthyroidism.. i hate being weak physically. i hate not being able to walk fast and climb stairs.. so i forced myself to do some cardio workouts.. i know to not over exert, cause failure will only make me feel worse or give up. so i don’t aim so high~ i started out by doing dance aerobics!! ūüėĄ i know i can’t jog or brisk walk with asthma.. so i need to start as light as possible. what better way than to have fun and exercise at the same time? ūüėÄ so i did a few dance aerobics¬†and funny chair exercise (suitable for old folks) on my own at home~ it’s funny, easy, light and best of all – i had fun laughing at myself~ it cheers me up! ūüėČ as i gained more energy (after a week), i do more leg exercises to gain back strength in my thighs (damn hyperthyroidism).

Notice most of the links is exercise vids by Paul Eugene? eheh.. don’t mind me.. look for your own videos.. i like to follow him last time cause he’s funny~ ^^” i love lifting¬†weights most!! (more here) but of course, due to my wrists and shoulders, i don’t carry too heavy a weight~ bought a pair of plastic waterbottle dumbbells from Daiso~ =D if it’s just water inside, it’s light, good for a start.. over time, i add reject glass tiles into the bottles to increase the weight~ lolz!! ūüėĄ but if you have sore tendons like me, PLEASE take care to not get too immersed and overdo it.. i more than once overdid it and strained my shoulders.. took over a week for the pain to go away. not fun.. @_@

Mental strength is harder to gain.. some manage to gain them through meditation and yoga.. i can’t do either.. my mind CANNOT shut up.. i blame Tim.. and since i always have this monster in my head, i might as well make full use of him, hey? Afterall, if it weren’t for depression, i probably wouldn’t have came up with Tim, wouldn’t have created my own identity, wouldn’t be where i am today~ and so, i always make sure i have a sketchbook and pen/pencil nearby~ or at least my phone with a sketch app and notepad inside.. i doodle any thoughts and ideas i get.. write when i don’t have the energy to doodle.. and store them in my phone or upload over at my fb page.. over time, i look back.. look at what i’ve come up with.. so far, i think i’m progressing~ lolz!! i’m moving at a snail pace, but at least, i’m still moving~

Frozenfa Reporting i learn to appreciate how far i’ve come.. instead of getting irritation at people taking pix of my posters without asking for permission, i learn to appreciate the fact that my designs are funny enough that people will (rudely) photograph (without asking for permission).. i guess with the advancement of technology, plus increase in stress due to SUPER COMPETITIVE¬†way of life in Singapore, plus Courtesy Lion working ONLY once a year, i guess it’s natural that social etiquette here keeps dropping and dropping.. When a big group of people come and stopped and laughed and joked with each other while looking at the posters but not getting a thing, i thought “Hey, at least my designs can make a whole group people stop.. AND have fun~!” From there, i learn to appreciate people who just came to check out the designs i have.. people who’re on their way, and then suddenly turn back to look or paused to look at my designs.. “my designs.. can make people stop on their tracks!” ūüėĄ and then, i’d feel even more thankful to those who actually bought a little something~ Some may buy just 1 mini badge.. some bought like a bunch of keychains or badges for colleagues.. then there are some more generous ones who’d buy a bunch of posters for their colleagues.. my heart swelled each time people buy in bulk.. some chose the glass tile necklace for their daughter/girlfriend/friends.. alas, as all my things are printed in small quantities locally.. and/or made by myself, alone.. so i can’t afford to give people much discounts.. =( i don’t have the capital (and space at home) to print in bulk.. nor do i have the money or confidence to pay and teach people to make for me.. ^^”

i look back at what i’ve achieved last year.. hmm.. i think i’ll put that all into another blog.. things that i’ve achieved.. my portfolio etc.. i think i rattle on long enough here.. O_O”

New Online Store – Necklaces, Rings, Earrings and More!! =D

Hi Everyone!! Yesh~ after many Many MANY delays… Fa FINALLY listed something on Etsy.com!!! ^^” Just how delayed was i? Well, i’ve initially planned to upload things at Etsy last year.. but things kept going wrong, had to deal with sickness here and there.. infections + hospital stay.. depressions backlashing.. preparing for end of year Christmas stall (this one not a complain), childhood asthma making a comeback blah blah~ So yea, Frozenfa Store is FINALLY “LIVE” on Etsy.com, now!! Thank you so much for the wonderful and user-friendly platform, Etsy!! Here are the items i’ve listed so far:

Summer Days Are Golden – Square Glass Tile Necklace

Summer Days Are Golden - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: Summer Days Are Golden © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$15.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details:
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102495308/summer-days-are-golden-square-glass-tile

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

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Vintage Blue Butterfly v.2 – Square Glass Tile Necklace

Vintage Blue Butterfly v.2 - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork © ArtCult
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$15.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details:
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103330920/vintage-blue-butterfly-v2-square-glass

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

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I’m Just Me – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

I'm Just Me - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: I’m Just Me~ ¬© Latifa Binte Aziz (Frozenfa)
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
From Twisted Inner Monsters Series
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details:
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102702451/im-just-me-slim-rectangle-glass-tile

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Silver-plated plated bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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If You Have No Patience, I HAVE NO TIME – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

If You Have No Patience, I HAVE NO TIME - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: If You Have No Patience, I HAVE NO TIME! © Latifa Binte Aziz (Frozenfa)
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
From Emo Panda – Grim-chan Series
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102702596/if-you-have-no-patience-i-have-no-time

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Silver-plated bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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Vintage Extract from Zen Garden v.2 – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Vintage Extract from Zen Garden v.2 - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: Zen Garden © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102728256/vintage-extract-from-zen-garden-v2-slim

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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Extract from “Coffee Break” v.2 – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Extract from "Coffee Break" v.2 - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: Coffee Break © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102702155/extract-from-coffee-break-v2-slim

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Silver-plated bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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You Can’t See Me… – Square Glass Tile Necklace

You Can't See Me... - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: You Can’t See Me…? You Won’t See Me! ¬© Latifa binte Aziz (Frozenfa)
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
From SilentCries Series
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/102702127/you-cant-see-me-square-glass-tile

Medium Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.2cm by 3.1cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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Summer Days Are Golden – Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Summer Days Are Golden - Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Artwork: Summer Days Are Golden © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$17.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103107914/summer-days-are-golden-rectangle-glass

Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 2.2cm by 3.1cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

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Little Cat from “Cherry Blossom” – Glass Earrings

Little Cat from "Cherry Blossom" - Glass Earrings

Artwork: Cherry Blossom © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$20.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103388834/little-cat-from-cherry-blossom-glass

Small oval glass tile earrings featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 1.3cm by 1.8cm. Stainless steel earring hooks connects to the glass using a rhodium connector.

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Little Bird from “Whale Song” – Glass Earrings

Little Bird from "Whale Song" - Glass Earrings

Artwork: Whale Song © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$20.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103391856/little-bird-from-whale-song-glass

Small oval glass tile earrings featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 1.3cm by 1.8cm. Stainless steel earring hooks connects to the glass using a rhodium connector.

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Glass Earrings – Extract from “Neptune’s Angel”

Glass Earrings - Extract from "Neptune's Angel"

Artwork: Neptune’s Angel ¬© Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$20.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103467153/glass-earrings-extract-from-neptunes

Small oval glass tile earrings featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 1.3cm by 1.8cm. Stainless steel earring hooks connects to the glass using a rhodium connector.

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Glass Earrings – Cute little girl & bird from “…her name is Tree”

Glass Earrings - Cute little girl & bird from "...her name is Tree"

Artwork: ….her name is Tree ¬© Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Available for sale at USD$20.90 (Excluding registered mail shipping)
Click here for more details: 
http://www.etsy.com/listing/103661048/glass-earrings-cute-little-girl-bird

Small oval glass tile earrings featuring mineral-glittered high quality printout that has been glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 1.3cm by 1.8cm. Stainless steel earring hooks connects to the glass using a rhodium connector.

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And here are some items which recently sold.. Will work on making new ones and re-list them by mid August.. Thank you so much to our customers for supporting us!! =D

Make A Wish - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Make A Wish – Square Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork: Make A Wish © Latifa binte Aziz (Frozenfa)
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Singapore (Listing to be renewed by August)

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Silver bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

Vintage Extract from Zen Garden v.1 - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Vintage Extract from Zen Garden v.1 – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork: Zen Garden © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Singapore (Listing to be renewed by August)

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

Vintage Blue Butterfly - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Vintage Blue Butterfly – Square Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork © ArtCult
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Singapore (Listing to be renewed by August)

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

Smile Daisy - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Vintage Blue Butterfly – Square Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork © ArtCult
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Australia (Listing to be renewed by August)

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Brass bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

Extract from 'Coffee Break' v.1 - Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace

Extract from “Coffee Break” v.1 – Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork: Coffee Break © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Netherlands (Listing to be renewed by August)

Slim Rectangle Glass Tile Necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures approximately 3.7cm by 1.8cm. Silver-plated bail loop opening measures about 0.5cm x 0.7cm.

Baby Elephant - Square Glass Tile Necklace

Baby Elephant – Square Glass Tile Necklace
Artwork: Baby Elephant © Karin Taylor
Handmade by: Latifa (Frozenfa)
Status: Sold & Shipped to Australia (Listing to be renewed by August)

Small rounded edge square glass tile necklace with high quality printout glazed behind to protect the artwork. Glass tile measures 2.5cm. Silver-plated bail loop opening measures about 0.3cm x 0.4cm.

Frozenfa & SilentCries Stores at Zazzle – Updated!

Hey there, just a short one to let anyone who might be reading know that i did a lil changes here and there over at my 2 stores at Zazzle.com – Frozenfa and SilentCries. Namely, just a new banner design for each store and an addition of a banner that’ll link the stores to each other:

While I was at it, i also changed some of the color scheme i used for the Frozenfa store to shades of blues and yellows.. =) Zazzle is currently having a Limited Time Offer of Free Shipping On Orders Above $50!!

Enter code:
FREESHIPFORU
at checkout in the “Zazzle Coupons/Gift Certificates” box.¬†The free shipping offer is for standard shipping to U.S. addresses only. Shipping charges will apply to oversized orders and orders being shipped on an expedited basis or outside the U.S. Offer is valid through June 30, 2012 at 11:59pm PT.

You can combine orders from ALL the different stores over at Zazzle!! Here are some of my recommendations:

Customizable Couple's iPhone 4 Case (His) Customizable Couple's iPhone 4 Case (Hers)

Baby’s Organic Creeper By Karin Taylor (left) and Tote Bag by Dreamz Boudoir – Udonchow (right)

The Littlest Elephant Zazzle Shirts The Orchid Belle Bags

Necklace by LisaMarieArt (left) and Mug by Tiny Treasures – Mui Ling Teh (right)

Tuxedo Cat & Big Teddy Bear | Cat Art Pendant Cranes of hope mugs

Teapot by Ujean’s Whimsical World (left) and Badge/Buttton by BubbleDoll Teapots (right)

Cute Bakery Cupcake & Swirls(Brown) Kitchen TeaPot China Rose Teapot Pin Badge

And while i’m at it.. I really wanna share¬†Jasmine Becket-Griffith’s store with you!!! Love LovE LOVE her works!!!

"The Sick Rose" iPad Case The Last Leaves BINDER fairy angel fantasy

"Owlyn in the Nest" Coaster  "Alice and Snow White" Flex Magnet

"Scavengers" Mousepad  "Poppy Magic" Plate

"Little Autumn Leaves" Notebook "Poisonous Beauties I: Belladonna" Plaque

"Senseless Prophecy" Puzzle  "Amongst the Koi" Macbook Pro Sleeve

"Penitent Magdalene" Gift Box Premium Jewelry Box "Strangely Lonely" Macbook Rickshaw Sleeve Ipad Sleeve

"Lute and Lyre" Speaker Mending a Broken Heart NECKLACE valentine fairy

So pretty, my eyes bleed~ ūüėĄ

SOLD PRODUCTS from Frozenfa and SilentCries @ Zazzle.com!! =D

WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!! Hope everyone had an awesome X’mas and New Year Celebration!! =D

i just realised i haven’t post any sales update for my Zazzle stores since July 2010!! O_O” eep.. i honestly thought i did do one update last year.. ^^” oh well, here are the sales i’ve made since then!! X)

Thank you Kathlene from Costa Mesa, CA for purchasing (frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt shirt
(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Mason from Tucson, AZ for purchasing (julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain keychain
(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Erin from¬†Naples, FL for purchasing¬†You don’t see me, You won’t see me! Binder¬†by¬†silentcries

You don't see me, You won't see me! Binder binder
You don’t see me, You won’t see me! Binder¬†by¬†silentcries

Thank you Nikki from Miramar, FL for purchasing (tim-b09) I Love Me Button by frozenfa

(tim-b09) I Love Me Button button
(tim-b09) I Love Me Button by frozenfa

Thank you Suzanne from Winooski, VT for purchasing (schm-st01) Schmoo Sticker by frozenfa

(schm-st01) Schmoo Sticker sticker
(schm-st01) Schmoo Sticker by frozenfa

Thank you Nguyen from Grenoble, France for purchasing (cfraz-mg01) Chibi Frazzle Mug by frozenfa

(cfraz-mg01) Chibi Frazzle Mug mug
(cfraz-mg01) Chibi Frazzle Mug by frozenfa

Thank you Christine from Raleigh, NC for purchasing (ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card by frozenfa

(ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card card
(ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card by frozenfa

Thank you Sandra from Mosman, Australia for purchasing Yuriko-chan by frozenfa

Yuriko-chan shirt
Yuriko-chan by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Normand from¬†Hobe Sound, FL for purchasing¬†Lil’ Frazzle Meows~ Poster¬†by¬†frozenfa

Lil' Frazzle Meows~ Poster print
Lil’ Frazzle Meows~ Poster¬†by¬†frozenfa

Thank you Matthew from Orlando, FL for purchasing (tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug by frozenfa

(tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug mug
(tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Ribena from¬†London, United Kingdom for purchasing¬†Dear Pillow… T-Shirt¬†by¬†silentcries

Dear Pillow... T-Shirt shirt
Dear Pillow… T-Shirt¬†by¬†silentcries

Thank you Irene from Waterford, Ireland for purchasing (tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug by frozenfa

(tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug mug
(tim-mg11) I Love Me Mug by frozenfa

Thank you Dennis from Billerica, MA for purchasing (tim-t46) Tim in Red Kids T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t46) Tim in Red Kids T-Shirt shirt
(tim-t46) Tim in Red Kids T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Beth from Yachats, OR for purchasing a customized (tim-sb01) Happily Twisted & Mental Skateboard by frozenfa

(tim-sb01) Happily Twisted & Mental Skateboard skateboard
(tim-sb01) Happily Twisted & Mental Skateboard by frozenfa

Thank you Jodi from Wilton Manors, FL for purchasing (mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker by frozenfa

(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker sticker
(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker by frozenfa

Thank you Sandee from Castle Rock, WA for purchasing (mewr-mg03) Love You Mug by frozenfa

(mewr-mg03) Love You Mug mug
(mewr-mg03) Love You Mug by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Daniel from¬†M√ľnster, Germany for purchasing¬†(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker¬†by¬†frozenfa

(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker sticker
(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker by frozenfa

Thank you Sarah from Marquette, MI for purchasing (julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain keychain
(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

Thank you Sherrie from Richmond, CA for purchasing (schm-t01) Schmoo Kids T-Shirt by frozenfa

(schm-t01) Schmoo Kids T-Shirt shirt
(schm-t01) Schmoo Kids T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Scott from Midland, Australia for purchasing a customized (julian-mg01) Julian РThe Rasta Crab Mug by frozenfa

(julian-mg01) Julian - The Rasta Crab Mug mug
(julian-mg01) Julian РThe Rasta Crab Mug by frozenfa

Thank you Ryan from Manchester, NH for purchasing (cfraz-k03) Chibi Frazzle Meows Keychain by frozenfa

(cfraz-k03) Chibi Frazzle Meows Keychain keychain
(cfraz-k03) Chibi Frazzle Meows Keychain by frozenfa

Thank you Krista from Gurnee, IL for purchasing (frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt shirt
(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Susan from Tecumseh, MI for purchasing (frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt shirt
(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Anthony from Edinburgh, United Kingdom for purchasing Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Julian - the rasta crab shirt
Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Thank you Peter from Lisburn, United Kingdom, for purchasing (SF-03) Summer Fun T-Shirt by frozenfa

(SF-03) Summer Fun T-Shirt shirt
(SF-03) Summer Fun T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Alexis from Fairbanks, AK for purchasing pc05) Life In The City Postcard by frozenfa

(pc05) Life In The City Postcard postcard
(pc05) Life In The City Postcard by frozenfa

Thank you Sang from Thousand Oaks, CA for purchasing I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Damian from Rockdale, Australia for purchasing (tim-t37) Hello!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t37) Hello!!! T-Shirt shirt
(tim-t37) Hello!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Matthias from¬†G√∂teborg, Sweden for purchasing¬†You won’t see me! Poster¬†by¬†silentcries

You won't see me! Poster print
You won’t see me! Poster¬†by¬†silentcries

Thank you Lynda from Leicester, United Kingdom for purchasing customized (frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt shirt
(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Matthew from Rockville, MD for purchasing (julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain keychain
(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

Thank you Earlene from Southwest Ranches, FL for purchasing customized (mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker by frozenfa

(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker sticker
(mewr-s1) Love You! Sticker by frozenfa

Super big THANK YOU to Patti from Tampa, FL for purchasing 25 customized (julian-mp02) Hermit Julian Mousepad by frozenfa

(julian-mp02) Hermit Julian Mousepad mousepad
(julian-mp02) Hermit Julian Mousepad by frozenfa

Thank you Praveen from Kirkland, WA for purchasing (frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt shirt
(frothie-t) Frothie T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Pourpoint from Verneuil Sur Seine, France for purchasing customized (cfraz-b02) Chibi Frazzle Button by frozenfa

(cfraz-b02) Chibi Frazzle Button button
(cfraz-b02) Chibi Frazzle Button by frozenfa

Thank you Christopher from Pembroke, United Kingdom for purchasing (tim-gc05) Missing You~ Card by frozenfa

(tim-gc05) Missing You~ Card card
(tim-gc05) Missing You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Ng from Footscray, Australia for purchasing customized I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Elizabeth from Rye, NY for purchasing a pair of (ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card by frozenfa

(ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card card
(ken-gc01) Kenny by the Beach Card by frozenfa

Thank you Monique from Stamford, CT for purchasing Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Julian - the rasta crab shirt
Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Thank you Carol from London, United Kingdom for purchasing Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Julian - the rasta crab shirt
Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Thank you Reima from Swansea, United Kingdom for purchasing (cfraz-t01) Chibi Frazzle T-Shirt by frozenfa

(cfraz-t01) Chibi Frazzle T-Shirt shirt
(cfraz-t01) Chibi Frazzle T-Shirt by frozenfa

Thank you Linda from Ann Arbor, MI for purchasing No Discount?! Button by frozenfa

No Discount?! Button button
No Discount?! Button by frozenfa

Thank you Debbie from Moorpark, CA for purchasing With Love Р(Emily) Sticker by frozenfa

With Love - (Emily) Sticker sticker
With Love Р(Emily) Sticker by frozenfa

Thank you Kimberly from Killingworth, CT for purchasing a customized Holy Cow! Avery Binder by frozenfa

Holy Cow! Avery Binder binder
Holy Cow! Avery Binder by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Clive from¬†Cwmbran, United Kingdom for purchasing¬†You don’t see me~ T-Shirt¬†by¬†silentcries

You don't see me~ T-Shirt shirt
You don’t see me~ T-Shirt¬†by¬†silentcries

Thank You So Much to¬†Jessica from¬†Van Nuys, CA for purchasing…

5 customized (tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt shirt

3 customized (tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt shirt

a customized (tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt shirt

a customized (tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt by frozenfa

(tim-t40) ARGH!!! T-Shirt shirt

Thank you Jörg from Sontra, Germany for purchasing customized I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Eileen from Honolulu, HI for purchasing customized (mewr-stp01) You Are Invited Stamps by frozenfa

(mewr-stp01) You Are Invited Stamps stamp
(mewr-stp01) You Are Invited Stamps by frozenfa

Thank you Gatellier from Gien, France for purchasing (schm-b01) Schmoo Button by frozenfa

(schm-b01) Schmoo Button button
(schm-b01) Schmoo Button by frozenfa

Thank you Emese from Bainbridge, NY for purchasing Support Bacteria! Bumper Sticker by frozenfa

Support Bacteria! Bumper Sticker bumpersticker
Support Bacteria! Bumper Sticker by frozenfa

Thank you Mabel from Jackson Heights, NY for purchasing (tim-b13) Love You~ Button by frozenfa

(tim-b13) Love You~ Button button
(tim-b13) Love You~ Button by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Jason from Pemberton, NJ¬†for purchasing¬†In You Have No Patience… iPhone 4 Case¬†by¬†silentcries

In You Have No Patience... iPhone 4 Case speckcase
In You Have No Patience… iPhone 4 Case¬†by¬†silentcries

Thank you Shannon from Stockton On Tees, United Kingdom for purchasing customized I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Isabella from Eastbourne, United Kingdom for purchasing customized I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Lisa from Spring, TX purchasing Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Julian - the rasta crab shirt
Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Thank you¬†Yiliang from¬†Rochester, NY for purchasing Customizable Couple’s iPhone 4 Case (His)¬†by¬†frozenfa¬†and¬†Customizable Couple’s iPhone 4 Case (Hers)¬†by¬†frozenfa

Customizable Couple's iPhone 4 Case (His) speckcase
Customizable Couple’s iPhone 4 Case (His)¬†by¬†frozenfa

Customizable Couple's iPhone 4 Case (Hers) speckcase
Customizable Couple’s iPhone 4 Case (Hers)¬†by¬†frozenfa

Thank you Andreas from Wangen, Switzerland for purchasing customized Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Julian - the rasta crab shirt
Julian Рthe rasta crab by frozenfa

Thank you Melissa from Sierra Vista, AZ for purchasing (tim-b10) Hug? Button by frozenfa

(tim-b10) Hug? Button button
(tim-b10) Hug? Button by frozenfa

Thank you Nhien from San Diego, CA for purchasing Wear Your Feelings! РShirt by frozenfa

Wear Your Feelings! - Shirt shirt
Wear Your Feelings! РShirt by frozenfa

Thank you Molly from San Diego, CA for purchasing I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Emma from Perth, Australia for purchasing I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

I Love You~ Card card
I Love You~ Card by frozenfa

Thank you Dana from Franklin, IN for purchasing customized (julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain keychain
(julian-k2) Julian, Rasta Crab Keychain by frozenfa

Thank you so so SO MUCH to everyone who have visited and purchased from Frozenfa and SilentCries Store over at Zazzle!!! I’m so proud to announce that to date, there has been¬†98342 visits at¬†Frozenfa¬†and¬†10614 visits at SilentCries!!! i think¬†Frozenfa¬†also got listed in the homepage as Featured Seller twice so far.. i’m truly touched.. This year will be my fourth year over at Zazzle.com!

Thank you so much to Zazzle.com for the opportunities to¬†¬†sell my designs on your super cool range of products and also for awarding me with a¬†Basic ProSeller badge! Awww… X) wish i can hug you guys… ^^”

I’ll work hard this year to upload my latest designs into different products and create even more designs!! Thank you so much, once again, to all my supporters!!!!

3rd year on RedBubble… Thank you, Karin! =D

Eheh.. after reading Karin’s journal, i just realised that it’s been 3 years since i first joined RB!! O_O wow… it’s been really fun.. I was so afraid when i left the corporate world last time.. not knowing where to go in life.. but thanks to Ganz i was introduced to redbubble.. and from there, i met so many lovely people!! One of which inspire and gave me so much strength and encouragement.. her name is familiar to many here in RB.. Karin Taylor~

Yep! i’m ever so glad and thankful and grateful that i met her and we became friends not long after we both joined RB.. hehe.. it’s been such a cute journey.. i love Karin’s paintings the moment i first saw them..

   

and i’m so flattered when Karin likes my lil monster’s stupid humor.. ^^” Karin continued being my friend, even when my depression got the worse of me.. and i can hardly exists on RB.. she gave me the confidence to start my SilentCries Series.. of which i’ll be uploading into my frozenfa account on redbubble in awhile, so that i don’t need to maintain 2 accounts, since RB now supports categorizing of portfolios..

it was also thanks to Karin, who somehow happen to chance upon the contact number of someone in the management, that i manage to join PaTH – Pop and Talent Hub in Singapore and start up a physical stall!!

Karin too gave me the permission to be her sorta reseller here in Singapore.. i feel really fortunate and thankful to have found such a kind and talented friend.. X)

Now before i head off to sleep, to every artists and craftwoman/man out there who bullies… Stop bullying!!!

You’re pathetic if you have to resort to bullying your competition in hope that people will purchase from you instead. i really despise businessman/woman who resort to petty schemes in an attempt to pull down their competitor. instead of putting in effort to better yourself, you trying to bring other’s down? The outcome will still be the same. you’re the same old fellow no better than you were before your “competitor” falls. of course, i won’t be¬†surprised¬†if many business people out there don’t agree with me..

Competitors are EVERYWHERE. if you wanna regard someone as a competitor whom you must beat, all the best. You have a whole world of designer to compete against. There will always¬†be someone better than you, and someone doing¬†waaaaaay better than you. Even the best can’t hold reign forever.

“Competition brings out the best in products and the worst in people. ~David Sarnoff”

Personally, i’ve given up on pitting myself against other people. Even if i win someone, there’ll be a million others to win against next. i’ll never be happy. So i’ve always challenge myself instead. I work hard to make my new products better than my old ones. If silly customers keep “bathing” with their necklaces, i work on making it more waterproof. honestly? till now i’m not satisfied with the tile pendants.. i wish can do glass melting or metal welding or buy trays for all, but then the selling price will have to increase, and we all know, in singapore, it’s hard to make a living if you’re selling things too expensive. “Complaining” is our national hobby.. ūüėĄ if there’s new style to try i’ll try the new style and when people like it, i make more. in this case, i’ve started selling filigree necklaces.. i work on improving my own sales for each weekend-stall rather than try beat other shops.

of course there are many days when business is poor. especially when shoppers have big budgets. they’ll naturally rather shop in boutiques and branded shops than pushcarts. there’re also days when sales is awesome for other vendors but just slow for me. sometimes i’d envy them., these days, i just feel happy for them. i can’t be bothered to be jealous, cos they are selling their designs. if the shoppers that weekend happen to like their stuffs, i can’t expect them to also happen to like my stuffs. sometimes, i’m the one that gets good sales because the shoppers that weekend in the area happens to be shoppers that likes mine and karin’s design. there is no point in being jealous of other people’s business.. envy them if you must.. then work hard on improving your on sales, your own design. not waste time trying to bring other people down.

“Am I not destroying my enemies when I make friends of them?” ~Abraham Lincoln

if you have a handmade-jewelery stall, are you going to regard another jewelery stall beside yours as your competition? how about the jewelery shops in the mall..? then how about the jewelery shops in the country? the world? you’ll never be satisfied or happy if you spend your life trying to bring all of them down. Instead, work hard to keep improving your own art/craft. Do lots of marketing and networking. Play nice, and you’ll have more allies than enemies. You never know when you might need their help. Heck, if you’re nice, some might even offer you help before you ask for one! So Play Nice Online and Offline! Stop Bullying!

In addition do check out these articles to find out more about bullies, why they bully and how to deal with or at least cope with bullies.